Coming Home

Ah, my dear readers, it is good to be back! I feel as if it has been an age since we shared time together! I realize that I have been somewhat sporadic in my writings, and I apologize. It has been a rough season for me.

First and foremost, Child #3 is an ever-mounting challenge. He is bound and determined to move out as soon as he graduates. Though not my first choice, I can see it has its appeal. He wants desperately to be separate from me and his sisters. He doesn’t feel as if he fits in, which is ridiculous, but I must validate his feelings. 😔.

This puts me in an extremely difficult position. I love my child and want to protect him, but the reality of living on his own may serve its purposes in lessons learned. His therapist is pushing him to move out so he can be free of my rules and begin his “real” life. She doesn’t know how this may hurt him or us as a family. On the other hand, I just want the fighting and hurt to stop.

The two remaining children (and I use that term loosely, as they are both of age!) are tired of the arguing too. They want calm and fun and just loving each other. Me too!

So there’s that. My oldest, from whom I hear nothing, is another issue of mine. I feel she has thrown our family away. I feel abandoned and sad. I have no idea what is going on in her life, and I’m a bit scared for her! It is better that she is growing and no longer needs the nest, but it is also painful and sad.

I do have good things in life. My Church is awesome and I love it there. It is my favorite hour of the week that I spend there each Sunday directing the choir. There’s also someone else I have become aware of of late.

He is a nice gentleman who is part of the parish family. He’s very nice and quite good looking (if I do say so myself!) I would love to get to know him better and we are discussing the possibility of having a Bible study together. We’ll see.

My job at the shelter is good. I enjoy the people I serve, though sometimes it’s hard. I had a resident last week insist that we were dating, as he joined me for a movie I had put on. I strenuously disagreed! First, we are not allowed to date residents (I have never even been tempted!) and even if we were, I prefer my men to have all their teeth!!! Maybe I’m extra picky, but really?

So, that is where I am right now. Besides fighting off my anemia and the subsequent exhaustion. Fun! Fun! We are chugging along.

Hopefully early next week my closet will get out back together. Yeah. When they installed the shelf and hanging space they neglected to screw it into the studs,so with very little weight on it, it came crashing down. Great! The closet is all emptied out and ready for new shelving. Hopefully they’ll install it into the studs this time! No more Barbie roller coaster shelving! What a pain!

What have you been up to lately? How have you been managing these grey, cloudy days? The long days of the shortest month of the year? Let me know in the comments below!