depression – GF Recipes and Writings

The Face of the Shelter

As some (or all of you, if you’ve been paying attention!) know, Children #’s 2, 3, 4, and I are currently residing in a homeless shelter. It isn’t bad. It’s not ideal, of course, but at least we have our own room and bathroom. There is a kitchen that we share with several other rooms. Continue reading “The Face of the Shelter”

Is Anyone Listening????

Hello? Are you there? I can’t see you! Where are you? Why must I face it in loneliness? Where have you all gone? Fair weather or foul, I am here. Where are you?

The Rope’s End

Swinging, swinging From the Rope’s End Just a little more Let go. It can’t hurt more than it already does. Too much pain! Too much suffering! Only the evil really thrive! Where is He? Just. Let. Me. Go. As you may or may not know, our family has been going through many tough times. WeContinue reading “The Rope’s End”

A Family Mental Health Update

It has been brought to my attention that at least one of you (Shout out to Tamara!!!) want to know what’s up with our family (and our mental health!) So, here you go! Not having a home is very challenging, especially when it comes to mental health. Child #3 is still taking his pills, butContinue reading “A Family Mental Health Update”

Mind Storm

Twisting Swirling Truth Lies Mind in chaos Voices Visions Is truth known Delusions

Will Anything Help?

Back a couple of years ago, when my world with Child #3 was imploding, I was told by an HHS worker that nothing was going to change for them. This child would always be handicapped and basically, that I better get over having any hope for anything else. I was devastated. The thing was, andContinue reading “Will Anything Help?”

Not Enough

Do you ever want more of something? Clothes, shoes, cars, food, etc.? Have you ever felt like you’re not enough? It’s not true. Everyone is a child of God and everyone is enough. But do we ever feel like maybe we’re not? I grew up in a family of four with a mother, father, andContinue reading “Not Enough”

A Barren Tree

A barren tree, I stand alone. Frigid breezes rip at me. They have been here before, They show no signs of abating. Some day I might lose a limb. Some day when the wind howls and Blows its roaring breath at me. I will break and fall, Down, Down, Down.

Suicide

The wind outside is swirling. The snow has filled in the footprints and blessed the scene with crystalline purity. Inside her the storm also rages. Hey, it’s me. If you’re reading this he finally did it. She couldn’t take it; listening to her other personality. He did the best he could, but it was neverContinue reading “Suicide”

Mourning the Dream

“Wherever you go I will go, wherever you lodge I will lodge, Your people will be my people, and your God, my God.” – Ruth 1:16 Today I took child #2 Black Friday shopping. We didn’t get up at the crack of dawn or anything, as in years past. There weren’t that many good dealsContinue reading “Mourning the Dream”