Sharing Saturday: Losing Prudence

This was exactly how I felt.

I decided to do something a little different for this sharing Saturday.  Sure, there are many more Young Living products that I want to share, but today I decided to take a break to remember someone who is very dear to me.  If you were not aware, today is national pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day.

When Child #1 was just a tiny girl, she wanted a sister.  “No boys in my house!”  was her decree.  Um, yeah, see I’m not in charge of that!  She didn’t care.  From just about the moment she could speak in full sentences, (which was a decidedly early occurrence at 1!) she was asking for a sister.  So we started trying to have another child.

I was pretty sure I was pregnant and I tried a home pregnancy test.  It was positive!  I was so excited to have a sibling for Child #1!  I got the pregnancy confirmation and started the planning for the new baby!  

On Father’s day of that year I was cutting the grass with the riding mower.  I started to cramp, then spot.  Uh-oh!  I was in trouble.  When I got to the hospital and into a room, they did an ultrasound and told me that there was no baby.  I was devastated.

The baby, whom I named “Prudence,” would have been born the month before Child #1 would be have turned three.  Sadness.

The difficult part was that some people did not think of her as a child. To them, she was just “tissue!” In fact, my doctor actually asked me to bring her in. I was horrified! I told her that I had taken my child and burried her. I couldn’t believe the callousness in which she needled me about seeing Prudence so she could poke and prod her. Nope. Never gonna happen!

We ended up have Child #2 about 13 months later. She is my rainbow baby, because I never would have had her if I hadn’t lost Prudence. It doesn’t mean that I would trade either daughter. It just means that they’re both special to me!

I love you, dear, sweet child! This post is for you! Pray for those of us still here!

Published by Rita

I am a single mother, a Christian, a writer, an abuse survivor, a reader, and a friend. I've wanted to be a writer my entire life and now here I am!

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